Текст с Bandcamp’а:
“うらぶれた路地裏に迷い込んだよう
人気のない無機質な家の壁が迫り来るようだ
味方の筈だった それなのに
ただ 言葉のナイフばかりがこの身を突く
取り戻したい やり直したいよ すぐに
使い捨てるだけの生命を生きる
何にもなれない 消えてしまえたらいいな なんて
ほらすぐそこに
感情が僕を苛むのだ
才能が無い 投げ出したい 逃げ出したい しがみついていたい
荒れた土地に咲く花のようになりたかった
失望と臆病 無関心と自尊心
期待はずれかい?
裏切りと信頼
口ばかりの人になりたくなかった
春を想う
夏を想う
秋を想う
冬を呪っている
取り戻したい やり直したいよ すぐに
使い捨てるだけの生命を生きる
何にもなれない 消えてしまえたらいいな なんて
ほらすぐそこに
繰り返しの日々は時に優しく
使い古しの祈りは届くはずもない
泣き喚きたい 大好きな人に会いたい
それでも息をする
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It’s like I’m lost in a worn down back alley
The lifeless walls of this house closing in around me
You were supposed to be my friend
But your words just cut like knives
You want to get it back, to try again,
to live a disposable life?
Saying you can’t become anything, that you wish you could disappear
Just look, it’s right in front of you
My emotions irritate me
I have no talent, I want to throw it all away, to escape, yet cling to it
I wanted to be like a flower able to bloom on broken land
Disappointment and cowardice, apathy and selfishness
Are you disappointed?
Betrayal and trust
I wanted to be more than just talk
Spring, I feel
Summer, I feel
Autumn, I feel
Winter, I curse
You want to get it back, to try again,
to live a disposable life?
Saying you can’t become anything, that you wish you could disappear
Just look, it’s right in front of you.
The day-in day-out is sometimes kind
Worn-out prayers can never reach
I want to cry, I want to see those I love
But, I’ll just breath
from 脈打つ者は想う / That with a pulse feels, released April 24, 2020
Written by 佐々木アユミ (Ayumi Sasaki)
Arranged by 葉緑体クラブ (Youryokutai Club)
Recorded at SOUND CRUE
Mixed & Mastered by 山崎優一 (Yuichi Yamazaki)
Programming: エミリオ (Emilio Buonanni)“