NIGHT TAPES - LONER [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

Subscribe to Night Tapes’s channel: @nighttapes6077 Director and editor: Owain Emyr Morgan Set Assistant: Tomos Morgan Narrative consultant: Jordan Mitchell ’loner“ written, recorded, produced & mixed by Night Tapes Night Tapes is Max Doohan, Sam Richards & Iiris Vesik Iiris is wearing a white top and a white skirt by Holly M.Z - @hmz_wip on instagram loner lyrics I’ve been searching for so long For the truth Call me up Could you see me through? All I ever wanted was to do as I wanted All I ever wanted was to feel free To be all you wanted To be made of dreams Loner, come on over Show me how to heal All I had to do was ask you To stay here with me All I knew how to be was lonely In my memories Just a loner Come on over for me Just a loner As I craft her To be made of dreams Dreams Dreams Dreams Dreams - Follow Night Tapes: merch: (T-SHIRTS!) (VINYL!) #nighttapes #loner -- I think having your own room should be a human right. I didn’t have my own room until I was 16 & once I had one, I became more productive creatively. not only could I just be with myself, but I could project my inner world to my outer world in an immediate way. to play/practice music in your room - what a dream. I come from a lineage of hermits. alone is how I charge my batteries & organize my inner self. but I have a tendency to hide. I guess I developed a desire to be the best self around everyone and if I couldn’t feel up to it, I would just hide. Sarte has said:: “hell is other people” & I truly felt that. tides of shyness would explode over me and I just felt so painfully other. as if surrounded by invisible walls I felt that I was just watching all the interactions, pondering if the things I would say would be ok. but mostly I would just think for so long that I would say nothing & show nothing. it’s a lonely feeling when you can’t show your real self to others. maybe because of the fear that they won’t accept you as you are - maybe you’re actually too loud? too intense? too vivid? but to be genuinely in the moment & not thinking always- even at the risk of being disliked is also the way to be found by the people you really vibe with. life pushed me to change when I moved to London from Tallinn. I found a new version of myself that speaks a different language and is less afraid of humans & the World because I was forced to interact. can’t say that the transition was easy though. I feel it’s very true that it is in the darkest of night that the seeds of a new life & a new self are planted. I just couldn’t keep on isolating myself - things were not going the way that I had planned & I was forced to put myself into uncomfortable situations. I was far away from home, from family & the friends I had known & on the brink of a life that was new & foreign to me. It got too lonely even for a loner. it was for the best. I can actually talk to people now. & even even express it when I don’t agree with stuff. so if anyone shy here is pondering, if to go on an adventure. I really recommend it.