DEPECHE MODE BUT NOT TONIGHT

My fave Depeche Mode song. I remember in 1987, driving myself to my waitress job, having left my very depressed and unemployed best friend at our apartment, all the while worrying if that was the last time I was going to see him alive. It was dark as I drove along the bumpy road( a road that’s STILL crappy 30 plus years later, despite the fact that it’s one of the few major thru streets in my large-ish city.) As I drove, the rain came down and I was crying right along with it. I was young--still a teenager--and I was scared that I couldn’t hold my own life and my friend’s life together much longer. This song came on, and although I’d heard it before, it had such a meaning to me that night. Both of us are at a happy, healthy place, but I know that ribbons of melancholy run through our lives like raindrops on a windshield. This song is still so relative to me after all these years.